I’m not sure about you, but I honestly didn’t know my reasons for wanting to travel at first – I just knew that I had an urge to see the world and discover something I’d never found in my everyday life!
Life is so weird, because when you’re in the thick of it, the dots don’t always connect and it’s only when you step away that you can see the real reasons for decisions that you’d made. Rewind a few years to my life before my travelling adventure, on the outside I may have appeared ok, but inside I was crumbling. Life, it seemed, had dealt me some pretty crappy cards and I was doing my best to keep my head above water. I didn’t feel as though I was progressing in life, I had zero self confidence, I let guys treat me terribly because it was the only way I could get their attention, money was constantly slipping through my fingers, I stayed in my room for days at a time eating nothing but crackers and I was on anti-depressants. The odd thing about this is that I kept it a secret – only the people I lived with at the time knew the extent of what I was going through. I was embarrassed, so I hid my struggles from the world.
Soon after that I made some changes in my life and realised that the easiest way to get through this was to keep it moving. I wanted to get as far away from this situation as possible, so when me and my best friend got into a conversation about travelling Australia, there was no question!
At the time, I didn’t know the difference that trip would make to my life, but over a year of experiencing my highest highs and my lowest lows I learned a lot about myself. I’m sure you’ve heard the phrase that things get worse before they get better – well, it’s true. Delving into my past memories wasn’t particularly the most joyous thing I’ve ever done, but it forced me to become mentally tough. My mindset transformed from “flight mode” to “fight mode”💪🏽
I’ve always known deep down that my purpose is to encourage people to truly love themselves, and inspire them to believe in their capabilities. But I realise now that’s impossible if you don’t love or believe in yourself first.
I can now honestly say that I truly love myself and believe that I can achieve anything I set my mind to. I’m not an alien – this does wobble at times, but overall I’m internally a completely different person to who I was a few years ago. I now pride myself in helping others to have their own experiences getting to know themselves and achieving things they may never have thought possible. Always remember that things aren’t always as they seem, so don’t ever compare your reality to how you perceive another persons reality.
Fighting an internal battle is the most destructive of all, but I know that you can win! I’ve been there and all of the most powerful people in the world have. It’s really your weaknesses that are your strengths! Take massive action right now to start transforming yourself from a metaphorical caterpillar into the butterfly you were born to be 🦋
~ Sherilyn ~